ok, its been a few days, i guess i should update. i know everyone is dying to here where i am on my journey toward being over my ex girlfriend. cause come on...we all know this is an extremely unique problem and nobody else writes in their blogs about such things....right? anyone...?

anyway... i've found so often in my life, in comforting other people's pain, i can truly find rest in my own. amazing to me how that works. if asked before the experiences of my life i would say there is simply no way i would be able to even go about comforting someone when i am hurting. i think i still believe that when i am hurting. and yet my experiences keep proving me otherwise.

i wrote on wednesday how realizing her indifference toward me would enable my own healing process to begin. one day later that began to be proven. i was sitting through another extremely unproductive day in my office when i decided i would be better served to go play video games. divine inspiration i guess. i planned to leave the office around 4 in order to have time to go home and work out before heading out to one of my kiddos' plays.

at about 3:30 one of the few other 20-somethings at the church came into my office. when i had met her months ago, shortly after moving here, i noticed she was an attractive girl. it took about 5 minutes of conversation for that to go away, however, as i found how crazy her theology was, and how lost she was. i didn't have much time for the conversation, and told her we would talk later.

turned out to be about 8 months later. she stopped by my office to say hi, and quickly we were in a spiritual debate. she was practically yelling, as i sat and listened, waiting to share why exactly the idea of Jesus being the only way to heaven was truly a sign of God's love, and not His hate, lack of acceptance, or leaving of us all together.

well, things calmed down and we had a great diaolg. i didn't leave by 4. we talked until after 6. i drew a diagram showing our seperation from God and how Jesus, and only Jesus, came to bridge that gap. she tearfully admitted her guilt, and how hard it was to argue, and agreed to consider the Truth found in Christ.

you can only imagine the smile on my face as i left. in talking about our struggles and pain i told her of my pain. and i told her that though right then i wasn't happy, i did have joy. i could always find joy in Christ. because He never stops providing it. because happiness has to do with our happenings. joy has to do with the state of our heart.

and i walked away from that conversation reminded of what real joy is. reminded of what real purpose is. do i miss my ex girlfriend? more than anything. does it still hurt? yeah, it does. but i truly feel that ive regained my joy in Christ, and am on the road to healing.

i even had a friend tell me about someone that he thinks i would like. and that he thinks would like me. and the crazy thing is, i'm actually considering it. she wouldn't replace my ex. she wouldn't even have to compare to her. because maybe, just maybe, we could help each other to focus on the true joy, and then maybe that happiness would follow.

i cant imagine being farther on the road to healing than i am right now. all thanks to constant reminders and prescence of God's awesome joy.

have a nice day